On life, betrayal, not love.

1:26 AM

If the only person you ever really loved betrayed you, it just shows how bad a judge of character you are.

And how damned silly you are.

You'd better make damn sure that you never ever open your heart to anyone again, just to get it trampled on.

That person didn't even have the decency to make things right. He is a coward who wants to think that everything is alright.

Well everything's fine, except for the fact that your heart doesn't beat anymore. The heart that used to beat only for him.

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There's a somebody I'm longing to see
I hope that he
Turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me.

And maybe then my heart will beat again.

Dear John

12:10 AM

Been two months since i posted?!?!? seriously.

Long were the nights
When the days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps,
Prayin’ the floor won’t fall through, again
My mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back
And turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules every day
Wonderin which version of you
I might get on the phone, tonight,
Well I stopped pickin’ up
And this song is to let you know why

Dear John,
I see it all now that you’re gone.
Don’t you think I was too young
To be messed with
The girl in the dress
Cried the whole way home
I shoulda known.

Well maybe it’s me
And my blind optimism to blame
Maybe its you and your sick need
To give love then take it away
And you’ll add my name
To your long list of traitors
Who don’t understand
And I’ll look back in regret
How I ignored when they said
"Run as fast as you can"

Terribly emo song. But it's exactly how I've been feeling since June last year.

Never trust.