the season of giving

4:16 PM

everybody likes to sit around a table with family and friends during festive seasons, exchange well-wishes and gifts.. nicely made cards and what not.. everybody will be afraid that their gifts will not be well-received.. but the receiver will always try to be grateful. afterall the giver was sincere enough in the first place.

some people tend to give more than they receive. although they dont really expect to receive the same amount that they give, i think the basic amount would be a simple "thank you"

is it SO hard to say thanks? or at least try to look grateful. like the gift meant something.

when people say they have "no time" to do something nice for their friends.. i kinda think it's crap. because you can always make time. dont tell ME how busy you are. cuz i have experienced the epitome of being 'busy'. to me, "no time" = no sincerity. or maybe that friend doesnt mean THAT much to you afterall.

i guess i shouldnt do so much anymore. i used to think that friends dont require anything in return. just keep giving.

then i realised, no, i think we do need something in return too. just a simple sms or a word of thanks would suffice. but when you dont get any..

giving can be tiring.

so the next time you receive something from someone and you didnt prepare anything in return for that person, just give a sincere smile and say "thank you!"

i think the giver will feel fantastic.

thanks to all my friends who have given anything to me in one way or another. (: HEHE. i reallyyy appreciate you all.

i kinda miss the times we gathered tgt and exchanged handmade stuff.. really shows how much we cared for each other.. but this christmas.. i guess we're just all too busy. ):

oh well! the gathering at shan's was AWESOME. wenjie and ps gave me facial masks :P which i will put to good use! and yx made terrific cupcakes. SERIOUSLY the best ive eaten. shan bought me a duper chio pair of havaianas which has earned me loads of compliments in hall already.

lookin forward to the mini 7`11 gathering at chinpei's house later (:

BAH BAH BAH

12:10 PM

SIGH! this holiday doesnt seem like a holiday. it's even busier than last sem. ):
sometimes i really regret involving myself in sooooooooo many hall activities. somehow i always get myself into this kinda shit. x_x taking on too much responsibilities and trying to do so many things at one go. every day is packed and it's getting harder and harder to breathe.

got an audition later.. dont think it'll turn out well because we've simply had NO time to rehearse at all. afterall my partner is a busy person too. ):

i didnt wanna sell my soul to the hall but it seems i have.
because friends dont like to disappoint.

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first pingpong match tml. gggggggggggggggggggggg. havent played competition in AGES.
DIE!

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you were the one who knew me best..
you knew when i put fullstops in conversations i'm pissed off.
you notice all the small things.
you would lend me a helping hand whenever i needed one..
you would always try to cheer me up..
you never turned your back on me once even though i did.

i hope this 'thank you' is not too late.
thanks for being such a great friend. (: gems like you are hard to find..

change.

2:17 AM

but why make yourself out to be / feel so miserable?
i think you dont deserve it..
although you have accumulated a lot of bad karma over the years, i still dont think you deserve this.
and it's self inflicted!

maybe it's time to make things right. (:

and the time is now.

one litre!

11:58 PM

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Your birthday means that you love the sun and the beach.
Your best colors are red and yellow. You tend to have many friends and you are well-liked, possible because of your outgoing and sunny personality. You are a very positive and enthusiastic person. Shopping is likely something you enjoy very much, not just for yourself, but for other people as well. You shine at parties and get togethers, and you are definitely an extrovert.

ermmm ok that was SO untrue. about the sun and the beach. i DISLIKE both.

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i watched "one litre of tears" that day alone at home and i cried BUCKETS. probably because the dying girl in the movie had nobody to love her.. no asou-kun! ): sad. the girl in the Drama serial had asou-kun! (:

then i watched it in hall with ykx and barney. dont know why i didnt cry during the movie when i watched it with them.. HAHA! so we decided to watch the drama serial to get into the really sad mood. (zi4 zhao3 de4.)

"If you're walking, no matter how slow, I will walk with you.
If you're speaking, no matter how slow, I will listen to you.
If you cannot talk on the phone anymore, I will come directly to see you.
I .. love you. Probably. Maybe I'm in love."

(: lovely. and heart-wrenching.

Only Human

Kanashimi no muko-u kishi ni 哀しみの向こう岸に
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo 微笑みがあるというよ
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa たどり着くその先には
Nani ga bokura wo mat-teru? 何が仆らを待ってる？

Ni-geru tame ja na-ku 逃げるためじゃなく
yu-me ou tame ni 梦追うために
Ta-bi ni deta ha-zusa 旅に出たはずさ
to-oi natsu no ano hi 远い夏のあの日

Ashita sae mieta nara 明日さえ见えたなら
tame i-ki mo nai kedo ため息もないけど
Nagare ni saka-rau fune no you ni 流れに逆らう舟のように
Ima wa mae he susume 今は前へ进め

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni 苦しみの尽きた场所に
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo 幸せが待つというよ
Boku wa mada saga-shite iru 仆はまだ探している
Kisetsu hazure no himawari 季节はずれの向日葵

Ko-bushi nigiri-shime こぶし握りしめ
!asa-hi wo mateba 朝日を待てば
A-kai tsume a-to ni 赤い爪あとに
namida kirari ochiru 涙キラリ落ちる

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara 孤独にも惯れたなら
Tsuki a-kari tayori ni 月明かり頼りに
Hane na-ki tsuba-sa de to-bi tatou 羽根なき翼で飞び立とう
Mot-to mae he susume もっと前へ进め

Amagu-mo ga kireta nara 雨云が切れたなら
Nureta michi kagayaku 濡れた道かがやく
Yami da--ke ga oshie-te kureru 暗だけが教えてくれる
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari 强い强い光
Tsuyoku mae he susume 强く前へ进め

it's a lovely lovely song. when the song starts playing the 4 of us will just "oh my god noooooo" and start shrivelling then reaching for the tissue box LOL.

i told zhutou we were torturing ourselves by watching it over and over again..
but he said it makes us more human (:
and i said.. afterall we are only human.

highly recommended drama serial! (the movie is based on a true story, which makes it all the more heart-wrenching)

5 days a week.

1:16 AM

LOSE. cannot upload photo. did a collage of the pictures that day at kbox/xinwang cafe with "3+1" and derrick!
haha so nostalgic. has been AGES since a clique has had a name. my last one was "7`11" :P

choir camp almost killed me. have never had a knack for singing ALL the right notes ALL the time. and i always had difficulty with flats and sharps. i must totally overcome these difficulties cuz sometimes im the only soprano singing ): 1 against 10, very xin ku! and i dont want to be a burden.
but "ding dong merrily on high" is a superbly nice song :D

it's sunday night and im alone in hall. ok la, yk's around, but hall still feels empty. went town with yanrong today :D IT'S THE SCHU SALE! 50 & 70% OFF ALL SHOES! ommmmgggggggggg. got 2 pairs of sandals for myself. they are PREEETY. :D we are happy kids. feasted on crystal jade and carl's junior too! we spend all our money on food. im proud of myself today because i stopped myself from buying useless shoes/tops/watches just because they're pretty!

it's like 1:30am now and im SUPER sleepy. think i'll sleep after i go collect my laundry. havent been sleeping so early for a looooooong time. because all my friends aint here. ):

table tennis at 10am later and dance at 11am later. i think my bones will break. CONFIRM.

ruiyuan posted class photos on facebook entitled "We see each other 5 days a week!" (: lovely lovely memories. actually i think tears came to my eyes as i saw all those photos. we have changed SO much. omg. it felt so nostalgic seeing the chocolate fountain explode, grad night, prom night, bbq at miss cheong's..... my awful long hair.. peishan's cute spiky hair.. yongxian's red specs.. shan's short hair..

those days we didnt know what makeup was. or rather, we knew but we didnt use lah! you get the drift.
those days we ate at ke ai ji, trekked to high school canteen to eat western food and cai fan, ate at curry wok, al-ameen, forture...
those days i watched movies more frequently than ever before.. because town was just "171" or "174" away (:
those days we used to laugh at the geog people because their lessons ended later..
those days there was a whole class of people to comfort me when i was down..
those days we gossipped about teachers and everyone else..
those days we sat at the class bench whenever we could..
those days we enjoyed ordering canadian pizza to eat at the class bench and we enjoyed piling all those boxes on the rubbish bin..
those days we had ugly toilets with leaky taps.. (now the juniors have pretty ones)
those days we wore our overly-small class tee once or twice..
those days we did mass dances (schemingly trying to pick our partners)..
those days we sang all the hwachong songs..
those days we had differences and arguments..
those days we fought.
those days we eventually patched up..
those days we felt happy..
those days we...
saw each other 5 times a week.

(: