like a silly joke.

8:52 PM

sigh..

it has been a long time since i have felt this way. to dismiss negative feelings i always tell myself, "it is just probably that time of the month". it'll go away soon.

but somehow i think this feeling is here to stay.

how does it feel to be sick of yourself? when you look into the mirror you see that scarred face. fucking angry at myself. why did i have to go and work at APPCO in the first place. just go do admin la. dont need put makeup. dont have to clog pores. and then end up going to some stupid facial place which left me all these scars.

it's fate. or maybe it's karma. today my "zuo hao ren" campaign finally ended. i cant take it no more! sorry jialin HAHA. i will resume the campaign promptly after i stop being negative.

school sucks as usual, hall life is just.. hall life. dont know.. suddenly feel like going home to zi bi. although i really like this room better than my room at home which is full of old junk. and of course there are nice people in hall.. like my roomie nonetheless, and my neighbours.

Never has the saying "What goes around comes around" hit me harder. it's my bad karma. confirm. confirmmmmmmmmm..

it's one of those nights you wanna cry on somebody's shoulder but there isnt anybody around......

quotes lily van der woodsen: sometimes im in a crowded restaurant.. sometimes i go home to a huge, empty house. but i dont know which one makes me feel more alone.

AND I THINK IM BECOMING MORE AND MORE STUPID. WHY LIKE THAT.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.