people.

8:00 PM

people keep talking; they can say what they like.

but everything's gonna be alright. (:

anyways. i just came back from dinner at can13. it was my utmost ill fortune to see this guy again. my first encounter with him was last night, in the TV lounge during a Man-U match. ok fine, maybe it's too obvious that i'm a liverpool fan. this guy turned around to glare at me twice during the match. and hello, i only stayed in that room for like 15 minutes?! he looked SO fierce. like he was gonna kill me.

and today at the canteen when i walked past him, he even craned his neck to give me this cold, hard glare. oh man, i mean it's already bad enough that you're not goodlooking, why give such an ugly expression? tsk tsk. i swear the next time i see him i'm gonna smile SO big that he'll soften his glare. (my initial thought was to glare back twice as hard but why stoop to his level?)

sigh, people nowadays.

i am seriously feeling insecure about tomorrow. but i feel that i've already done all i can to prepare for it. i just hope that i'll be less careless in punching in the numbers. that said, i shall go trim my nails now. whee.

i think i am happy.

9:48 PM

HEHE. friends forever though it's very cliche.

I think my troubles are finally over! whee!

it's great to have a load off your chest sometimes.

random photo of us before goin to Lin Jun Jie's concert. hahha did i mention that i had a SUPER time there? the whole thing was so enjoyable and very touching!

this semester is coming to an end.. and that means, hall life for me is gonna end soon too. this sem i learnt a lot of new things like how to handle people and issues. how not to slack so much.. how to cherish what i have and be thankful.. etc etc.

in general i hope i have become a better person in some aspects. and i will cherish everything, every experience, everyone.

alright, off to take a shower and then start on Accounting. Accounting rules my world. (: WHEE!

(imma super-dork *pushes up spectacles and gives a dorky grin*)

the right kind of wrong?

12:59 PM

and so last night, i realised i still knew how to blush.

but what's the use? when you know it's not gonna end up prettily. when you have to hide something, you know.. you know you know it's wrong.
but who says we have to do what is right ALL the time? sometimes you have to do something wrong first. and then you'll see how the wrongs right themselves.
i hate to be writing metaphorically, twisting my words around.. but there are so many things i can't say.

i don't know where i'm going

and i don't know why

listen to your heart

before.. she tells you goodbye.

slacking.

9:38 PM

cutting yourself too much slack is evil.

i dare say i have been like this (fat) cat for the past 8 months.
today i finally realised. i think i must have been blinded. for EIGHT LONG MONTHS.
i think i didnt want to face up to the fact that i have been slacking my life away. i always liked to cut myself some slack. but i totally didn't realise that i was overdoing it.

today's quiz woke me up. i walked in without any hope of doing well. the paper was really easy though. and i realised i could actually do it. complacency set in and i slacked off, as usual. ending up with 3 or 4 very careless mistakes. i find myself agonizing over this same issue over and over again. and so today, i finally realised that the root of the problem was.

and it doesnt help that today is a wretched rainy day (and when being nice doesnt help at all). i mean, sometimes it's freakin' tiring to be nice to somebody. somebody you really care about. but the person just freakin' doesnt appreciate, or doesn't even acknowledge. and repeatedly pisses you off. and i think i have FINALLY freakin had enough. (and i'm not talking about a guy)

anyway, back to the topic of slacking. i realised if i wanna do anything, i shouldnt cut myself any slack. i must learn to be a perfectionist. i used to mock perfectionists for being too uptight, too serious and too fussy. but i realised, it is the perfectionists who get what they want in life.

i know, me saying that i wanna be a perfectionist sounds awfully hilarious. but i'll try.