some people wait all their lives.

9:11 PM

yes some people wait all their lives for things that won't happen.
I don't wanna be like them.
But unfortunately I am.
"Make it happen, then!" you say.
But is it really worth it? I asked myself and the answer was really quite evidently "no".

so yeah, 等不到就别等了。

i'll just close this chapter for now.

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sidenote: go for NUS Engin Bash 2009! "What the hat!"
It's at St James Powerhouse on 5th Sept.
I'm sure it'll be a blast. (:

one-way street.

12:01 AM

it's like i try to turn around on a one-way street.

im waiting for the first letter. if it doesnt come then... i might just disappear.

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doomdeedoom. the weeks fly by yet i havent found meaning in my current situation.

distant friends.

2:05 AM

sorry friends, for disappearing for a week!
was at Hall 3 FOC.

just had our first hip hop 2 lesson today. even though I was almost dying of windpipe infection HAHA.
we really really feel OLLLLDDDDDD. the class was very reminiscent of hall dance sessions except 100 times tougher. -pants-

today i was playing the sims and i received notifications that my sims had become "distant friends" with other sims due to their lack of interaction. (was too busy trying to help them fulfuil their lifelong wishes of being heartbreakers and CEOs and what nots)

the notification said "relationships are hard to maintain."

true, very true. i think that's kinda what i felt after going through the camp. wanted to say something positive but afterall i have to tell the truth. i no longer feel the sense of belonging i once felt.

i think i probably tried too hard at one point in time and then i became tired. and i just didnt wanna care anymore. maybe these relationships have to be 2-sided. no, not maybe. they have to be. or else they wouldn't have mattered in the first place, no?

I do feel a bit sore, a bit sorrowful. but there's nothing much i can do.

i guess it's back to being a nobody in school.