bailamos para siempre

4:47 AM

wooots this picture is so hot. love the composition and the sensuality.

went to watch bailamos para siempre at Zouk on thursday night. it was quite feast for the eyes. by the way, bailamos para siempre means "dance forever" in spanish (:

bailamos bailamos bailamos.

i was SO inspired to learn latin dance. especially salsa and jive. but i feel that im not jumpy enough for jive. so yeah, maybe next sem i'll take up salsa in school! learnt some basic steps frm jlin's sister! she was sooooo sizzling in her dance item. saw ben yeo who happens to be in ballare in SMU. and of course ahmad who's the president of NTU's Salsa and Ballroom :D he was great! cept for the gold glitter eyeliner and thin moustache.

will upload pics once jlin sends me. ahmad looked very funny :D

anyway i went to dye my hair today and oh boy, i loved the color. but my hair's getting drier by the day and.. guess what. there are 2 HUGE RED BUMPS on my face. they're not even pimples. they're BUMPS. yanrong now i can understand what happens to your skin when you walk past perfume counters. i think my bumps formed because of the strong chemicals used to dye my hair. i'm patting on hazeline snow now. hope my skin will be fine by tml. afterall CNY's around the corner! okay i think next time i'll just dye my roots. save money also :D TEEHEE.

went shopping with yongxian and i got a pair of sateeeen leggings and a gorgeous dress. simply simply gorgeous. it's simple but chic (: i'll wear it on chu1 yi1!!

had hall dance just now. was a great session of fun and laughter (: we did krumping. and boy was it TIRING. i think it's rather difficult to really have a "choreo" for krumping cuz it's rather freestyle in nature. go youtube krumping and you'll see that it's a scary high-energy dance. then we tried some stunts.. ok not much luck yet but i think we'll make it. i hope we do! lunch later in town then it's shopping for costumes! and mini reunion dinner with my family :D yay.

life has been okay these few days. i've straightened out my thinking and.. yeah i guess it's all a matter of perspective. life aint a bed of roses.. i guess we all need to learn how to deal with it.

but i still cant help but think........

find a place to hide.

11:58 PM

it's the second time i've cried during dance prac. machiam some drama. but seriously, im just too frustrated with myself.

wouldnt it be nice if i could be a baby again and cry in somebody's arms.. but no.. there was no one.

today when i burst out crying i wanted to cry in front of someone but i knew i couldn't. not anymore.

my life is becoming more and more packed. although it's good in a way because supposedly i wont have anymore time to think about senseless stuff.. i still think about senseless stuff.
maybe that's why i have no time to do my stuff anymore.

can i not live this life anymore? i know everyone is busy too.. and i became busy by CHOICE. or putting it more crudely, i deserved it. but anyway, i am SICK of this.

it doesnt help that my relationship with one of my bestest friends in hall has changed sooo much.
i dont want it to change.. can we go back to when we first knew each other? we were so much happier then.

all i want is somebody who cares.. where are you? you're not easy to find..

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did you feel the pain in the picture?

about beds.

3:14 AM

Let me tell you a secret:

I help my roomie make her bed when i miss her and i want to tell her stuff but i can't find a chance to.

or maybe it's to atone for being a snappy little brat.
choose one.
ok it's the former reason.

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will you still love me, tomorrow?

12:20 AM

will you still love me,

when i start nagging at you more than you can bear

when my waist grows bigger than my hips

when my hair starts to thin

when my hands start to shake

when I can no longer sketch

when I can no longer sing

when I can no longer dance

when I can no longer go on long walks with you by the river

when I can no longer cook nor clean

when the children have to take care of me instead

when my skin starts to sag, when my hands are no longer smooth

when I can no longer amuse you with my witty comments

when I can no longer laugh without choking

when we argue more than we speak

when I least deserve your love?

will you still love me, tomorrow?

it's always scary to grow old. but it's even scarier to grow old with somebody. the fear that he/she may not love you tomorrow.

apologies for the totally random cod (xue3 yu2) photo. but it's very awesome. i think i tlooks like a heart shape here. it's this cod dish from crystal jade kitchen(: thankyou for the treat mister handsome! I think i must have gained an instant kg from that meal. next time let's just stick to 2 dishes. whee.