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11:45 AM

havent been visiting my blog in ages..
wonder if anybody still visits it.
havent been visiting other ppls' blogs for ages either..

exams are okay so far, i mean, exams are exams, as usual.

i hate myself for making all the wrong judgements and bad decisions.. always.
i have never hated anyone or anything before.
so if i really do hate myself, that'll be so so sad.
and i dont know how it feels like to hate.
so that's another unexplored dimension which leads to immense fear.

and then..
now all i can do is look at the photos of my friends on my wall..
i need to go and develop a class photo after exams.. got all my girl-friends up on the board.. just missing 6D.
i miss everyone so much. i think it's the after-effects of cooping myself up in the room alone for too long.
but then again when you go and visit friends in hall you never know what you might find. it's scary sometimes. :X

havent met up with the girls in AGES. i mean ages. last time with 711 was ming's bday. a month ago. but it seems like a billion years.

last time i met up with 6D was... more than a month ago? seems like a trillion years.

last time i met up with ju was 3.5 months ago? seems like a zillion years.

and dorothy ): twenty thousand million years ago! my BFF where have you been..

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this is gonna be over in awhile.
on a happier note, skin is improving! :D
i may even consider going to the 6D xmas party w/o makeup if everyone doesnt mind my scars and we use ruiyuan's camera (which gives everyone duper good skin) ONLY! :D

and on a happier note, shan and cj are coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YIPPPPEEEES!

"the good, the bad and the weird" can unite again :P

aft exams im gonna be wrapped up in hall activities like SP and hall dance and HO again..
i hope i enjoy it (:

LOVELOVELOVE,
wensi