cherish..

7:12 PM

yes i may have hurt you.
but i did not desert you
maybe i just want to have it all..

like a fool i keep losing my place,
i keep seeing you walk through that door.

are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed..
there beside you, where i used to lay.

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i know, i've got weaknesses. who doesn't?
i'm always too impatient. and too stubborn.

too headstrong. and insistent on what i want.

but try to put yourself in my shoes. i have totally no idea what you're thinking of.
those pictures.. are my only source of hope.
what i treasure. and what i hold on to.

one fine day all these disappear. how am i supposed to stay calm.
it's a cry for help. it's not being unreasonable.
it's immense helplessness.

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as much as i want to try and be indifferent, i can't.
how can anybody be?
to be emotionally detached.. when love is about emotions?

my heart was torn apart when i read "i don't care how much...."
you don't care..
that's like "whatever".
and we know we both hate it.

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i wanna go somewhere far away too.
but i'm too afraid of loneliness.

yeah i guess, like they say, destiny's important.
if we're meant to be, we will be.
i remember i onced tagged something like that on some random guy's blog.

someday we'll know.

i'm still keeping my end of the promise. cuz it's a promise.

oh well.
watched spidey alr. the last song struck me.
but at least MJ and spidey have a happy ending.
because.. they tried. no matter how hard it was..
they tried to be together.

"I'm thru with love
I'll never fall again
Said adieu to love
Don't ever call again
For I must have you or no one
That's why I'm thru with love"

my heart's torn.
but it's still beating.

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and to all my friends who are (happily) in love,
one word:
cherish.