all the wrong songs.

2:52 PM

all the wrong songs.
still.

late realisations don't work, do they?
but i thought it was 'better late than never'.

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guess it made a difference to try..
made a difference to me.

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blame destiny yeah?

my wish. for youuuu.

10:47 PM

take some time to listen to this song.. and read the lyrics.

it's a great song (:

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"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice,

and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside,

show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything,

more than anything,

My wish, for you,

is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big,

and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you,

and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish

I hope you know somebody loves you

May all your dreams stay big

it's from.. the bottom of my heart.

to wherever you are.

i hope your dreams stay big.

i've been trapped in the past for too long.

burdened with blame..

made countless people worry..

i guess i finally sorted out one thing.

it's that..

i tried too hard.

alone.

kept thinking of how i went wrong.. how i could make this work again.

but it was.. futile. alone.

i've learnt a lot of things in this period of time.

my grades have been slipping badly but i'm not gonna let it get me down.

i hope you get the grades you want.

and be happy.

that's all.

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POLL!

10:21 PM

TO CUT, OR NOT TO CUT. THAT IS THE QUESTION.

MUAHHA.
short hair's the trend nowadays. just look at victoria beckham and tyra banks..
hmm. so i decided to do something to my floppy, layered long hair. decided to tie part of it into a braid and stuff it into my collar so that i'd appear to have short hair :D
and it WORKED.
many people got fooled! whee.
and most of them said i looked better with shorter hair.
and i think so too! short hair's so much easier to manage anyway.

im itching to go cut my hair.. get a cropped cut.
you know those kind longer in front shorter at the back kind..
but i'm afraid i'll regret after cutting my hair!
cuz i want long hair for prom......

ahhh. women are fickle creatures.

yup!
SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR?

please tag! (:
thankyou!

nonsense.

11:16 PM

somebody hates somebody saying "whatever"
somebody hates somebody saying "anything"
somebody (smart guy -.-) came up with the drinks "anything" and "whatever"
and made ridiculous advertisements to make
somebody miss somebody like mad.
but somebody should probably stop being silly.

somebody went to buy the drink "anything" (the non-carbonated one)

somebody thinks
this is just a ridiculous drink idea.

end of post.

SO NICE! ♥

10:09 PM

today i met someone special! (:
thanks. you really turned my mood around.
now im high high highhhh!

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today we (mingming kimmin and i) went around on a secret mission!
it was great fun. (:
met lotsa people we never expected to meet.
glad they still recognized us! after all these years.
hahah. primary school mates rawkkkk.
and of course, lotsa sec school loving (:
lotsa laugh and great funnnnn once again.

i had a reaaaaaaaaal great day.
the sky in XJC (cannot let the secret out!) was especially beautiful.
i really liked the environment there! felt like we fit in. whee.

guess i was too stubborn. didn't notice how beautiful the things around me were..

love is...
all that. and much much more.

thanks for all the love everyone!

im still high high highhhhhhhh. wheee.

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ooh but now i have to write my GP essay on war.
a topic which i have totally ZERO passion about.
urgh!
i love school. i love my family.
i love everything around me.

andand i've got a happy blogsong! (:

"life would be so nice

if one day i find

someone who will take my hand and samba through life with me!"

okay. honestly i don't know how to samba.
but it's a nice song alright!

"so nice (summer samba)" by Bebel Gilberto!
YYY

i don't know...

9:13 PM

i'm sorry.
cuz i don't know how to be fine when i'm not.
and i don't know how to make a feeling stop.

sorry for making everyone worry.
for being wilful and stubborn.
for doing many stupid things to hurt myself and hurt my friends.

i tried.. but i'll try harder.
different people have different ways of cheering themselves up..

i don't know how to be strong when i'm weak.
i don't know how to smile when i want to cry.
so just let me be this way for awhile.
while the world goes by..

just awhile.

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watching the channel 8 show at 9 let me gain a lot of insights about men and women.
if only they'd shown this drama serial earlier.
men are like rubber bands..
and they need time to think about stuff.. they're escapists.
while women are the exact opposite.
the inherrent differences between men and women make it seem weird that we can live together..
it's hard to find someone whom you love and loves you back.
yup. cherish..

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06S6D

7:12 PM

a tribute to 06S6D (:

honestly.. i've never been in such an awesome class. when i was in secondary school, sure, my sec 1/2 class was great. that's where i got to know 6 great girls from 7`11.. and other good friends i still talk to now.
my sec 4 class wasn't as close.. there were a lot of cliques, to be honest. and i wasn't in any. cuz i had 7`11. but 4L was filled with nice people who cared a lot for me too. they were funny and really sporting. (:

but 06S6D.. is a whole new different kind of class.
everyone is so nice and supportive. it's really like my 2nd or third family (hctt rocks too!). everyone is caring..
we've been through a lot as a class. although there've been conflicts here and there, i must say i've really felt the love. (:
especially during this period, my class is very important to me. and they have always been there for me.
even some people whom i thought disliked me care very much about me. in their own way.. quietly. i wouldn't have known if shan didn't tell me. thanks! you know who you are..
people who aren't good at expressing themselves try to be caring too.. i appreciate it (:
and of course there are a special few who go all out for their friends..
every day there'd be people asking about how i'm doing.. offering lots of care and concern. they don't wanna see me sad. and yup i'll try my best to cheer up.
i'd rather be happy for people who truly love and care about me.. than be sad for someone (who doesn't). (aiya i don't know what he's thinking so it's unfair to judge.)
i know i can be mean and cranky at times.. thanks for tolerating my bad temper.

i have never seen such a tolerant, helpful and caring class, honestly. im so just filled with gratitude, i don't know what else to say.. but THANK YOU (:

this is where friendships are forged.. for life.

cherish..

7:12 PM

yes i may have hurt you.
but i did not desert you
maybe i just want to have it all..

like a fool i keep losing my place,
i keep seeing you walk through that door.

are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed..
there beside you, where i used to lay.

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i know, i've got weaknesses. who doesn't?
i'm always too impatient. and too stubborn.

too headstrong. and insistent on what i want.

but try to put yourself in my shoes. i have totally no idea what you're thinking of.
those pictures.. are my only source of hope.
what i treasure. and what i hold on to.

one fine day all these disappear. how am i supposed to stay calm.
it's a cry for help. it's not being unreasonable.
it's immense helplessness.

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as much as i want to try and be indifferent, i can't.
how can anybody be?
to be emotionally detached.. when love is about emotions?

my heart was torn apart when i read "i don't care how much...."
you don't care..
that's like "whatever".
and we know we both hate it.

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i wanna go somewhere far away too.
but i'm too afraid of loneliness.

yeah i guess, like they say, destiny's important.
if we're meant to be, we will be.
i remember i onced tagged something like that on some random guy's blog.

someday we'll know.

i'm still keeping my end of the promise. cuz it's a promise.

oh well.
watched spidey alr. the last song struck me.
but at least MJ and spidey have a happy ending.
because.. they tried. no matter how hard it was..
they tried to be together.

"I'm thru with love
I'll never fall again
Said adieu to love
Don't ever call again
For I must have you or no one
That's why I'm thru with love"

my heart's torn.
but it's still beating.

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and to all my friends who are (happily) in love,
one word:
cherish.

mini hiatus!

9:01 PM

got lotsa stuff i wanna say..
lotsa stuff i wanna do.. but i can't..

my front tooth's dead.
kinda expected it but oh well i almost cried when i heard it. must have been from the fall i had in primary 6..
a crown's gonna cost a bomb. no. 2 crowns. and root canal treatment.. what not.
and my family's not that rich. i burden the family, i really do.
and at this time... this happens. i felt so.. helpless.
and i've got my first cavity. oh noo. ):
the filling process kinda hurt. was trying to take my mind off the pain in my mouth by thinking of other stuff.. but the aftermath was horrible.
heartache. Y

got lotsa stuff i wanna say..
but not now.
mini hiatus until fri..

keep holding on.

10:43 AM

we all just need to learn..
to learn how to breathe,
and to learn how to love.

breathe.
and keep holding on.

someday we'll know alright? someday we'll see.
love will move the mountains.

there's no measure about what's good enough.. and for who.
and there's no measure of the quantity of love you have..
because love can't be quantified.
love is a process. it's just the way you love. not how much.
and we all have to learn the right way to love.
are you willing to?

i'm not being idealistic. i'm not being unrealistic.
i'm just trying to hold on to the one thing that matters.
the one thing that feels so damn real.

love will find a way.. love will find a way. (:
trust in love. and love's about trust.
love WILL find a way. someday.

breathe..

11:11 PM

"Breathe"

I've been driving for an hour

Just talking to the rain

You say I've been driving you crazy

and its keeping you away

So just give me one good reason

Tell me why I should stay

'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment

in saying things we never meant to say

And I Take it just a little bit

I, hold my breath and count to ten

I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe

Let it fill the space between

I'll know everything is alright

Breathe

Every little piece of me

You'll see

Everything is alright

If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated

In not saying how you feel

So you end up watching chances fade

And wondering what's real

And I Give you just a little time

I, Wonder if you realize

I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe

Let it fill the space between

I'll know everything is alright

Breathe,

Every little piece of me

You'll see

Everything is alright

If I just breathe

Breathe

So I whisper in the dark,

Hoping you hear me

Do you hear me?

If I just breathe

Let it fill the space between I'll know everything is alright

Breathe,

Every little piece of me

You'll see

Everything is alright

Everything is alright if i just breathe...

breathe

I've been driving for an hour

Just talking to the rain

how.

11:50 PM

how am i supposed to know what you don't show?

how am i supposed to know many future dreams and plans arent wishful thinking on my part?

show me what matters to you..

cause you're all that matters.

don't take me for granted.

i'll love you for as long as you want me to.

no, even longer.

how about you?

cool kaleidoscope at science centre! (:

the exhibits there are still fab, but some parts are so dark it's scary. i keep thinking there's someone lurking in the shadows.

i used to find the playground fun, but now it doesn't seem so fun anymore. guess people change.

but well, it's the company, not the location that matters.