blind.deaf.unfeeling.
1:08 AM
you'd be
blind,
deaf and
unfeeling if you don't realise this.
sometimes i just get so damned
confused. i'm losing my faith.
it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time. it sucks.
i wish i could put my brain to better use instead of thinking about senseless, pointless stuff every day. it's not as if i want to overwork my puny brain. it's just a natural reaction.
it's a joke how this stemmed from nothing. i think about this and i laugh. how did everything change? that was a pretty damned thick line i had to cross. but now i'm stuck on the other side. part of me wants to go back. part of me just wants to stay and wait. and i'm
torn between the two. it can be painful sometimes. most of the time. when i'm alone, and i'm thinking too much again. i need to
keep my sanity before you take it all away. or rather, before i willingly give it up.
i'm losing my faith you hear me?