[[ it's okay.
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-------------------------------------------it's okay.i tell myself it doesn't hurt so it's okay.
i don't feel pain so it's okay.
but what about people who do drugs?
they don't feel pain. they feel good. so they think it's okay.
i bet.. it's secretly eating up my soul. bit by bit.
and maybe one day i'll become this empty shell.
then again, it doesn't matter does it?
for every part of me that tells myself it doesn't hurt
another part fights back strongly.
it's like i'm spellbound.
gripped.
i can't resist. i can't budge.
i don't want to, either.
or rather. what this is,
i really can't describe.
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