[[ new skin.

2:41 AM

a pretty, happy rainbow skin :D

don't worry. it's just temporary. i'll go back to using my green skin.
cuz i don't really adore blue. i prefer to think that blue is... rather melancholic than soothing.
but bright sky blue (ok fine. the color of this skin) encompasses both elements. it's also quite cheery, coupled with the lovely rainbow and hearts which remind me of my happy house handphone theme. i simply love rainbows.
this skin is a bit too happy for me don't you think?

went on a class outing today. we had half strength! 13 people. great. (:
death note rocks. L is damn cute. his behaviour, that is.
but Light is much smarter. sigh. too smart. too scary.
i learnt a lesson while watching the movie.
don't get a boyfriend who's too smart. LOL.

okay lame.
i just finished a murder mystery book. i emphasize it is a MURDER MYSTERY for people who think it is "that kind of book" -.-
im starting on a new one! i can't believe my interest in books has been rekindled after 3 years!
i used to be proud of the fact that i can write decent essays without reading. at all.
after promos, i was utterly disgraced. i was so horrified by my language marks that i did not bother looking at the ugly orange comments scrawled over my script. it would be too painful to read. apparently, either the pretty teacher who marked my script couldn't see/appreciate my sarcasm and irony, or my language sucked.
i prefer to think it is the former. although i know i should really start reading again to polish up my skills.
maybe after this new murder mystery book i'll borrow "The Undercover Economist" from Kevin.

yes. i shall.

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i walk myself away ;
i do that every day.
not without dismay
of not being able to see your face.

the uneasy feelings you raise
like dead leaves skittling with haste
you never fail to make my heart race
but fate is cruel, what a waste.

a part of me implores
you would open up your doors
rescue me from these empty shores.
these frightening, empty shores.

YY

[[ it's okay.

1:03 AM

YY

heart beat heart beat heart beat heart you heart beat heart beat

(guess what it means)

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it's okay.

i tell myself it doesn't hurt so it's okay.
i don't feel pain so it's okay.
but what about people who do drugs?
they don't feel pain. they feel good. so they think it's okay.

i bet.. it's secretly eating up my soul. bit by bit.
and maybe one day i'll become this empty shell.
then again, it doesn't matter does it?

for every part of me that tells myself it doesn't hurt
another part fights back strongly.

it's like i'm spellbound.
gripped.
i can't resist. i can't budge.
i don't want to, either.

or rather. what this is,
i really can't describe.

YYY

[[ broken wishes

12:19 AM

i've been a very very bad girl this year.
i guess this is my retribution.
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如果

如果连月光都拒绝精灵
如果连魔法都撤退出森林
如果故事的第一行就出现阴影
那么亲爱的你要叫我如何相信
这世上还有一尘不染的爱情

--《关于方文山的素颜韵脚诗》

he's damn good at writing lyrics. and poems.
the poems inside are freakin nice. :D
and the person who bought the book is freakin nice too.

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wishing

i wish clouds were made of cotton candy

and rain tasted like ice-cream soda

which isn't sticky

i wish running wasn't tiring

and high heels wouldn't hurt

i wish people can't feel pain

i wish you would think the same.

but what i really really wish,

is not to wish a thing.

because wishing is just wishing.

you don't know what you're missing.

go find that shooting star tonight

go throw a coin into that wishing well

write your wishes on a paper boat

and naively set it afloat

go rub a magical lamp

do everything you can

but nothing ever works for me

i'm plain unlucky, you see.

(blargh. it isn't meant to be a poem.)

im freakin tired now. nothing's going my way, but it doesn't matter.
my alter ego yearns to blog about some depressing stuff.
nah. maybe next time.

[[ over my head. totally.

11:17 PM

see the rainbow? pretty. :)
YYYYY

Over My Head

I never knew

I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's got to be

It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in

Over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind

Let's rearrange

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

Just say that we agree and then never change

Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard

Find another friend and you discard

As you lose the argument in a cable car

Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in

Over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past

I'm becoming the part that don't last

I'm losing you and its effortless

Without a sound we lose sight of the ground

In the throw around

Never thought that you wanted to bring it down

I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

YYY

great song.great lyrics too! :D