[[ the world hates me.

10:08 PM

THE WORLD HATES ME.

what a happy title! =D

the world hates me (:
that's why, nothing goes smoothly for me.

the world hates me (:
that's why god gave me a pair of eyes which have abnormally active tear glands.

the world hates me (:
that's why...
that's why i hate the world back.

the world hates me (:
the world fucking hates me.
period.

it's been a long time since i used that word.
about 1 hour ago, i felt like i was gonna die.
okay maybe not that bad.
my friends all tell me that my blog is way depressing.
they think i want to die.
well sometimes i do! but there are many things i've not yet accomplished in life.
i don't wanna die now.

45 minutes ago i cried like a baby.
even worse than a baby.
but i cry at the slightest things.
crybaby crybaby crybaby.
my friend was so helpless.
im so sorry.

30 minutes ago i sort of calmed down.
and i laughed. a bit.
i laughed a bit too hard.
tried a bit too hard. and it hurt.

15 minutes ago,
i realised there are many people who care about me.
i realised.. maybe the world doesn't hate me.
wait. hell yeah the world doesn't hate me at all.
how lucky i am to have such friends.

5 minutes ago,
i felt this strange sense of happiness.
poignant.
very very poignant.

1 minute ago, my heart ached again.
it hurts to know that he doesn't care anymore.
no call, no sms. no nothing.
and what did i do wrong?

30 seconds ago, i came to a conclusion.