[[ tomorrow

9:44 PM

everyone asks me to cheer up. Tomorrow will be a better day, they say. And tomorrow always turns out to be better. I realise after posting all those "i feel like dying" and "the world hates me" kind of entry, i actually feel better. Rather than posting those "help me help you" entries.

Truth and tranquility.. Both do not come together. Some people spend all their lives searching for the truth of a matter or maybe the truth of life. but after getting the truth, do they feel peaceful? no! the truth doesn't always calm people. the truth is cruel sometimes. but i'd rather hear the truth. rather than some flimsy, cliche excuses. Excuses don't suffice. Excuses hurt people even more. Although the truth doesn't give me tranquility.. it makes me feel a lot better.

Today i passed by the playground. Children were playing on the slides.. playing catching.. screaming and laughing away. yeah i admit i dislike noisy children. i don't like to hear people screaming. especially children. in normal circumstances i would just walk away without thinking too much. but today, i was looking at them with envy. the number of problems we have is directly proportional to age. as we grow older, we have more to worry about. house loans, jobs, insurance, utility bills, children...................
and the list goes on.
what do i have to worry about now?
-schoolwork
-relationship problems
-friends
-family
-money

okay. that's pretty little. and pretty trivial compared to what i have to worry about later in life.
when i was young, all i had to worry about was......... friendship problems. i guess. i didn't worry about schoolwork back then. i didn't really worry about schoolwork back in RV.
my junior asked me that day "how's HC?"
i replied "stressed."
then he asked "more stressed than RV?"
i asked "stress? where's the stress in RV???"

ha. =/ now im really worried about schoolwork. and the worst thing is, i don't seem to be doing anything constructive to salvage my poor grades. sigh. i really should start trying to work hard. im still formulating our pw survey now. bad progress.

I don't wanna believe you
when you tell me that it'll be okay
yeah i try to believe you
not today.
I don't know what to say
tomorrow.. tomorrow.
I don't know what to do
tomorrow .. tomorrow is a different day.