[[ pix~~

9:33 PM

not good enough? -nodsnods-

not good enough. must be.

we went to watch xmen 3 that day. and we played with the cool mac computers at the apple shop. woot. look at the effects. now we ALL want a mac comp each. (: more pictures with cool effects coming soon! im waiting for xiaobai to send me the pix. whee. jasper wants to go back and take summore pix!!

[[ quiz 4

11:08 PM

wenjie asked me to do this... so here it is. im running out of blogging material anyway. or rather im just too lazy to type the long entries. since there are so many abrasions on my hands. my mum says, "serves you right for refusing to do housework! see lah! go windsurfing then ur hands become like that!" well thanks for rubbing it in, mum -.- and my head still hurts from being rammed by you-know-who's board. the sharper end summore. =(

INSTRUCTIONS
(1) This is a quiz.
(2) those chosen people must do and then choose 5 people to do this.
(3) you must be honest. (:
(4) have fun !

[1] how many crushes u have? lol. one? although i'm not that sure about it now.

[2] i will recommend this song called ... by...`
currently these few songs are always on my playlist:
-Goodbye to you by Michelle Branch
-Everything you want by Vertical Horizon
-Where is your heart by Kelly Clarkson
-Ren Zhi by Zhang Hui Mei

[3] mummy, when i grow up i want to be a:` teacher. i wanted to be lawyer. then a doctor. then a teacher. then a psychologist.then a chemist.. but i think i better stick to being a teacher (:

[4] describe yourself and your features with at least 5 points:
1. i have jet black hair
2. i have brown eyes
3. i'm not pretty
4. i'm short and fat
5. i hate my nose.

[5] ok now. the most intimate thing you done with the opp. sex is:` he kissed me.
this reminds me of the philosophy talk which i was sleeping through today. what's the difference between "he kissed me" and "i kissed him", u may ask. -_- big difference.

[6] ur next dream bdae present will be` that GUESS bag. (:

[7] what do u want to tell your current crush/ex/current lover ?` ex: i think i've gotten over you (: current crush: erps. you only have 2 kinds of facial expression ahhaha. that's damn cute.

[8] final question, who are the next people to do this quiz ?`
1. jialin
2. yanrong
3. kwang guan
4. jiahao
5. feng zhao

[[ mothers' day special.

11:45 PM

Mothers' Day Special

you hang around me, searching for something to say.
i don't even look at you. i just keep looking at my computer.
you try to talk about things that interest me.. diets, movies and celebrities.
i find you irritating at times, talking nonsense all the time.
i groan when i see your picture on my cell phone,
"wensi where are youuuu?"
you ask about every guy that called me
you ask about every picture on my computer
you want me to get a boyfriend soon and bring him home..
sometimes i just don't give a damn.
you force me to drink bitter medicine and soup,
and when i don't, you beg.
i laugh at you for your shallow thoughts, i laugh at you for your old fashioned ways.
you always want to tag along on class outings,
how absurd, a mother following her daughter to meet her friends.
you love to sew clothes and make bags for me,
although i rarely ever use them.
whenever you nag at me for using the computer too long i just shout
"you're very noisy leh!"
and you almost immediately hush and go away.

i see the hurt in your eyes when i scream at you
you're just concerned about my health.
i know you put your heart into everything you do for me
you just want to be close to me,
to have greater participation in my life.
i know you're trying to be hip and cool,
you don't have to try so hard.
why beg me to do something good for myself?
it's not for yourself even.
i know you want me to be happy,
you want to know all my friends.
you want me to be safe from harm.
you know you can no longer shield me under your wing
because i'm taller than you now.
those mindless musings you make,
are actually words of wisdom i never take.
sometimes you just want to communicate.
i almost never reciprocate.
everything you do, you do it for me.
you just want the best for me.
you eat the leftovers so i can eat something nice.
you wash all the dishes, you cook all the meals.
you put up with my complaints of dirty dishes and salty fishes.
i never do appreciate you do i?

this mothers' day i didn't manage to say "i love you"
why am i such an idiot when it comes to expressing affection?
i could just give you a hug but i never do.
mom i wish you could read this.
what's the use, you won't be able to understand it.
one minute to the end of mothers' day.
how i wish i could make every day mothers' day,
so i'll realise i'm not a good enough daughter every single day.
blessed i am, with such a mother. blessed i am. (:

mom i love you and i hope you know it although i never show it.

*erps. it's not a poem. -_- no stanzas. yupp.

[[ flower

1:51 AM

there's a pretty flower in a pot on your kitchen countertop.
you are amazed by its beauty
simple yet grand.
its sole purpose is to please you and bring joy to you.
after some time, you get tired of the flower.
you see other flowers here and there
you neglect this special flower.
it begins to lose its beauty.
one day you realise this, and you begin to worry.
you're not about to let it go.
you water the flower, give it extra attention..
after a while, it becomes pretty again.
you're happy.
but you never learn, do you?
you let it whither away due to neglect.
you thought it'd always be there for you.
you're not that anxious anymore.
when it shrivels up,
you water it half-heartedly.
then you start to worry.
and you give it extra attention, ample sunlight, the best fertiliser..
but, too bad.
too late.
it's DEAD.

and the name of the flower is love.

i saw something like this on olivia's friendster profile. added lotsa stuff to it hahah.

_________________(:

i just want THIS piece of the sky. i won't change my mind. im stubborn. im sorry.

[[ a perfect life?

2:35 PM

i was thinking.. what would a perfect life be like? then i chanced upon kwang guan's entry. lol.

my life is 74% perfect.
[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[ ] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ fiancee/husband/ wife.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live somewhere other than a box.
T O T A L: 8

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once aweek.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.
T O T A L: 8

[x] You have over 100 friends on frenster
[x] You have pictures on frenster
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[ ] You look forward to go to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
[x] You shower daily.
T O T A L: 8

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You're healthy.
[x] You've never had a cavity.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parent(s) care and love you.
T O T A L: 6

[ ] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about sooo many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are happy you're living.
T O T A L: 7

Now count up the number and multiply by 2. Thenrepost saying 'My life is % perfect'

________):

my life is.. 8% less perfect than kwang guan's. lol. but is this how u define perfection of one's life? friendster? self-conciousness? and what's ridiculous is "u have a screen name". i mean WHAT HAS THAT GOTTA DO WITH PERFECTION OF LIFE?!!

i checked the box "i get good grades" tentatively. lol. im screwing up all the tests.
and im not exactly happy today. i think i didn't laugh today.
econs econs.. sigh. maths. i dun even wanna think about maths. i shall just flunk the test or something since my Series and Sequences 1 tutorial is totally blank. -_-

*asks aloud to unseen forces to bless me*

[[ stick

11:13 PM

i was feeling kinda shagged/bored/distracted. so i decided to play with paint.

title of the picture was originally colourless. lol. dno why.
doesn't colourless mean transparent? hmmm.
it's kinda sad that when u wanna give someone ur heart,
he/she doesn't take it.
but these 2 stick figures look damn gay.
both look like guys. my mum say look like monks. -.-
so wrong lah.
so i decided to edit it. lol. using PAINT.

Taa-daah!
the shy girl (with the obvious ponytail) kena
rejected by theguy with kuku hairstyle. ):
sad eh.
girl: i wanna give you my heart, but you just
won't take it. you don't even wanna look at me. ):
guy: ha! do u think i give a damn?!

conclusion: ping piang )):

then i was feeling kinda sorry for the girl.
i decided: why should the girl get hurt?

guy: im sorry. my hair's so ugly. ok. anyway.
can you give me your heart? pleaaase?
girl: ?huh
guy: dun act blur leh =(
girl: *dao*

okay. crap entry. most of the time we don't get happy endings.
it's not about how hard you try. lol. goodbye to you by michelle branch is nice. (: i've been looping this song for dunno how long.

Goodbye to you.
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew.

You were the one I loved,

the one thing that i tried to hold on to.

It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time;

i want you

but i'm not giving in this time.