[[ marina square

10:08 PM

today i went on the 4/7 7`11 outing! we went to marina square.
omgomg the cafe cartel meal was sooooooo horrible. the food was good but we were full even before the main course came. st louis pork ribs. SCARY. they were huge.
ming's was the biggest. but she had so many bones in her ribs lar. scary. the bones looked like woolly mammoth bones. hee. i ate like 2 bites of my pork ribs and i was sickened. so sweet. usually it would have tasted heavenly, but today it tasted like char siew. abandoned 3/5 of the pork ribs. sinful.

we ate until 4 something. ming had to go home. sigh.
so elaine, jialin and yanrong went shopping. heee. we chose an outfit for yanrong. from puremilk. the skirt was nice. =) yanrong doesn't have a single skirt in her wardrobe. except RV blue skirt. omgomg. i think i have many skirts. so girly. lol. i bought a turquoise colored tee! i love turquoise. after buying the tee i was almost broke liao lar, cuz we spent like 20 bucks on the meal and i spent 7 bucks on taxi. should've taken my own sweet time. since they were like 30 mins late. tsk.

so i went to action city to oggle at the flip flap thingie i've wanted for such a long time. especially like the ones which move the fastest. =D makes me damn happy!!! but i always spend my money on sth else. still waitin for some kind soul to buy me one! hahahha wait long long also dun have. tsk.
ahhh i shall go do chem independent learning now. =D
peaceout((:

10:07 PM

everlasting friendship! =)) hhaha ah black so cute.

10:06 PM

my pweeety shoes. =D heh my legs look fat. top view. -.-

10:06 PM

rong (chipmunk) looks sooooo seductive. wheeet! ((:

10:05 PM

what can i say? i just love these girls. heee. divas! =DD

10:01 PM

yeahhhh the seven of us. da retards =D soo spas. i love 7`11. whee.

9:55 PM

ok that reminds me. i look rather spas here. heh.

9:54 PM

lol. we're so spas. especially yanrong. somehow i can't look too spas. hahahah. =D

9:54 PM

wensi looks on as yanrong goes about her antics..

9:54 PM

jialin and yanrong. pretty girls =D

9:53 PM

boltox face!!! =DDD

9:52 PM

i finally decided to change the way i look in pictures. stand on the right!!! =D ok. do i look better on the right of the left? =X

9:52 PM

yanrong and me. heh. rong looks so cute. she's trying to prevent herself frm looking like she just got a boltox jab.

9:50 PM

jialin looks so cuuuute =DD

[[ random random.

10:30 PM

this is gonna be a random entry. like seriously random.

return me my towel u gu-niang. -_-" im seriously disgusted.

i know u hate me. stop acting.

no one knows. what lies beneath.

orange orange orange.
neoprint neoprint. cozy cozy. happy happy.
slow slow. pissed pissed.

CROWN FETISH.

cute cute.happy happy happy wheeeee. =D
don't think you know how i feel. cuz u're not me.
_______((:

okay im done random-ing.
peaceout((:

seriously i see no point in this entry hahahah.

[[ hhhahhahahha. like real.

10:33 PM

i can't believe it.

after all of this time

i'm still so in love with you.

this is such a hoax.

[[ i am such a wreck.

11:42 PM

i tend to reject the people who are nice to me.
i tend to protect myself from the people who are nice to me and let those who hurt me in.
why am i such a wreck.
i don't want to be like this. i hate this. this is the first time i've hated anything before. i hate myself for being this way.
the better u treat me, the more i push u away.
so why did i open myself up just to get hurt over n over again by you..
i have self torturing tendencies. except i dun dare to hurt myself. lol. not physically of course.
peishan says this is sinful.
i agree. she says i should learn to accept. i know i should.
why can't i just do myself a favour and accept the nice people around me?
maybe because i think i'm not worth it? someone offered me this explanation before. i don't think so.. there must be some other reason.
but.. what? please enlighten me..

peaceout. )):

[[ messedup

11:35 PM

how come i have this bad feeling that all i am doing will come to naught..
everything's in a mess.
my life is such a mess. i messed up so bad.
so so bad.

[[ normal.

11:47 PM

*_
hahha. i read somewhere that geminis know how to make people do work for them. yeah i agree. it's not like we use force on people.. we naturally have the "talent" to make people work willingly for us.

i think that's why i've become such a lazy person. cuz other people help me do my work. i'm not saying that i'm those kind who manipulate people. well maybe sometimes i have manipulative tendencies, but geminis don't manipulate people on purpose. i think it's in us. ha. i manipulate people every day. ha. BK +2. (bad karma +2). maybe that's why i get manipulated sometimes too. no, i don't get manipulated. i just follow people. i rarely have my own opinion. well i do, but usually i compromise.

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i told pengsing just now that he shouldn't ostracise pl. lol. and... well i guess i made him feel bad by saying "you're just like the other guys afterall." well no one likes to hear that they are like the other immature guys.. sometimes we compromise our principles in order to blend in.. maybe in a class of 18 guys there are only 5 or 6 guys who are really mean..? but the other nicer guys just succumb to their evil prowess and start to behave in the same way. just to blend in? what's so good about blending in? i think it's good to be special. many people think so but we don't do so. sometimes it's better to stay hidden. saves us all the embarrassment anyway. no man is an island. i guess this is part of our survival skills.
this brings me to another topic. singapore's education system.. i think we lack creativity and we have to import foreign talent simply because singapore students are too afraid to think out of the box and behave differently. what's so bad about being different? you don't get good grades. your teacher thinks u're just trying to seek attention and be rebellious. your friends look at you and say "aiyoh why u dun do this.. it's so much better lah!" and us students become less outspoken.. in fear of getting alienated from the "normal students" when we express a totally fresh new idea. we are so used to doing things in the same way. it's like always A,B,C,D instead of B,C,D,A. we could very well get a better result when we do things in a different way.
i am a so called special student. however i don't feel special at all. why am i called special. it's such an insult. and why are other students called "normal", when us "special" students are so pathetically NORMAL. -.-
we need to do something about our education. we have to start now! =D ahah. my long term ambition is to become the minister of education. tharman i'll be better than u! (don't laugh ok.)

yeah. so there. peaceout. ((:

[[ same old story

hearts've been broken anyway.

[[ bang

9:03 PM

i am so pissed today.
PEOPLE PLEASE STOP BANGING INTO ME LIKE I'M NON-EXISTANT.

___)):

let me tell u about this ah peh. i was walking on the pavement lar, about 6metres behind this ah peh. he was holding a lighted cigarette in his right hand. (he was not puffing on it) -_-" den the smell of cigarette smoke was overwhelming. summore i walking behind him lar. dunwan smoke den light the cigarette for WHAT. so i decided to speed up and walk in front of him so as not to breathe in his smoke lar. -.- so i did. i finally caught up with him and started walking in front of him with a smug look on my face. -_-" at that instant he crossed the damn road. wallau. why.
den i got pissed. i continued walking with this pissed off face and i crossed the road. seeing that it was rather early and i only had to meet my mum at 6:30pm, i decided to walk slowly. den the same ah peh appeared in front of me with his cigarette in his hand. -.- just smoke lar. hold in hand for what lar. damn er. at the same instant an ah ma carrying an umbrella scraped the umbrella across my head. damn.
and when i wanted to go down the steps leading to the MRT someone banged into me. wallau the path so big, stop banging into me lar. am i very fat? NO!

yeah sometimes in life we have to deal with many problems. and the more we run away from them, the more they come back to haunt us. and they come back with more vengeance. sometimes the best way to solve a problem is to walk away from it.. but is the problem really solved?

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stupid mingming. make me super embarrassed today lar. brrrrrrrr. jus u wait. anyway. i am the welfare rep of 6D! *applause please* yeah. cuz i'm so sociable. AS IF. -.- lol. i love my class! yay. but i am feeling devastated that i have to cease contact lens wear for 2 weeks. can only wear during training. can die man. =X yeah. look damn nerd with my specs. thanks pengsing for saying i have nice specs. thanks everyone else who sats i look cute in specs.. yeah really boosted my confidence lar. =))

[[ you made it clear when you said

"i just don't love you no more"

[[ nobody's home.

12:28 AM

had training today.. kimmin didn't go so i had to train alone. lol. no lar. trained with yuanshan. she dam pro. den i ownself go kai qiu over there.. like a loner lar. lols
den train with yushan.. damn tired..
had team dinner at some chinese restaurant after trg. was fun lar. got to know the guys a bit better.. and the girls too. although only 5 girls went. -.- me, yuanshan,daph, yvette, yushan.

_((:__
we finally have a clue on how to tell jan and jay apart. lols. jan is fatter=DD
according to xuehao, tyc and tianhao in hcjc leh. funny i dun see them anywhere. brrr. tyc shud be easy to recognise... =X

___:))__
on my way home i banged into this dangling worm. at the mouth of the underpass. i saw it coming.
it was brownish. eeeeeeeeeeeeeek.
den i closed my left eye before i banged into it.
it was on my left eye. a wave of disgust washed over me lar. seriously. i started furiously swiping off the goopy worm and flinging it away..
tot i would go blind. if i didn't close my eyes... brrr. i can't imagine the consequences.

daphne has a new nickname. XIAOBAI!
wouldn't it be nice if tyc is really in hc. den we'll have one xiaobai and one xiaoheii~~
perfect.=DD

i have to go sleep liao~ peaceout((:

[[ she wants to go home.

but nobody's home. )):

[[ tt

2:59 PM

just came back from hctt training. lols.
me and kimmin damn shy lar.-.-
we lousyy. but didn't really get trashed by daphne and yishan doubles lah. maybe daphne giv chance.
she's really funny lor. buey tahan. tot she was veh cool cool type when i saw her at the toa payoh competition.. but she's real fun. and crazy over roddick and ****** too. =DD
our captain sheila is real nice too. heidi my senior class senior also veh cute. everyone's nice lar.

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guys team i only know some of their names.. jan and jay the twins.. wei en the captain.. my fave mao dun.. lol. and chengxian and yanzhi whom i umpired before.. well and leng zheng yan whom i have known for like months..
brrr got 2 guys in the team i umpire before and we rather anti them but... i hope they dun remember me. *crosses fingers* pleaase don't! =X

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later going to play pool with my OG mates. hope it'll be fun. =) if pool fully booked we go sing kbox. i dun care.
veh long nv go kbox le!!!

okayy peace out! =D

[[ HCI

10:45 PM

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU.
but if i don't, why do i even bother to post this entry? brr.

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hci ppl stop thinkin i'm frm china. lol.
my class ppl say i look ANCIENT. STUPID DUNJIE!!!!
lol. another one say i look like those gui4 fei1. or those girls from olden paintings. whoa. is that a compliment? 0.O

my class got no shuai ges. LOL. ok lah got one still quite acceptable. KG. look a bit angmoh angmoh. he was supposed to be my mass dance partner. den stupid mark move behind and i got to partner samuel. fine. samuel was real nice anyway =)) he looks like terry from i not stupid. LOL. but he's more goodlooking larh. kevin thinks samuel is more shuai than KG. LOL.

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we've only got 8 girls in S6D. and 18 guys. our sister class is S65. there's some guy called jupiter! cool name. and there's this really cool guy in S6B. =) the class beside mine!! weeee.

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tmr me and kimmin supposed to go hwachong training -_-" so siah suey lar. but she attitude me. say maybe dunwan join -.- brrr. she dun join i oso dun join liao. scared..
kimmin pls join.
i shall go sleep liao. take care everyone~

[[ smart.

10:30 PM

tay wen si is SMART.
she didn't sleep a wink yesterday cuz of a bet. 10 movies.
and she kept sleeping through all the academic talks today. when she couldn't take it anymore, she ponned 2 talks. lol.
she even fell asleep during mass dancing and singing. how cute is that.
she is so smart ar. one day before orientation nv sleep at all.
go school keep sleeping sooo paiseh.

well at least she didn't lose the bet.
and her dance partner was very ke ai. =) not goodlooking but cute lar.
wensi hopes that tml will be more fun.
she is a freak. she wans to go take all the selection tests. ahhha. although she won't get in.
we're gonna collect our uber chio PE tees tml. whee. =)
although i may not stay on after the first 3 months.. haaaiyo.

[[ hollow

11:17 PM

today i went to celebrate dorothy's birthday with her..HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOT.
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i feel really empty lar. just like robot's nick. kong xu.
HOLLOW liao lar.
haha this is gonna be in hanyu pinyin.

ming ming zhi dao bu hui you jie guo.. wo que yue xian yue shen.. huo xu zhe shi wo zi ji chan sheng de huan jue.. huo xu. yi qie hen kuai jiu hui guo qu. lian wo zi ji ye bu xiang xin zi ji.. wo zhen me neng gou xiang xin ni.
WO BU XIANG XIN.

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[[ but u never came._____

[[ fireworks!

1:54 AM

heheh. chinpei's entry is soo sweet!
thankew 7`11 for all the good and bad times we have gone through together.. the name is very lame lah. we are the lamest clique in RV but we are rather cool too. =P
i love all of you~ dun forget me ok!
yanrong in AC.. jialin and chinpei in NJ.. zeehui and elaine in JJ.. me and mingming in HCJC..
evenly distributed!=DD yanrong faster become cool ok! hahha.. we'll have an outing after the 1st week ok..

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yesterday we went to watch fireworks at the esplanade. my shoes were so killing me. -.- and we ended up on the wrong side of esplanade. all the trees blocking me. brrr. lucky we didn't get sprayed by those blangas. the stupid snow spray thing veh sticky one lor.
after fireworks me and jl and yr went to sleepover at ming's house. we watched this mahjong movie.. and i slept for like 15 mins at the climax. -_-" and i totally missed the ending. hello. how suey can i get.
some blur king called at 4 sth and we talked till 6:30am.. -.- and den i went back to sleep until 12 sth.. LOL. after lunch we still lagged around and watched tong meng qi yuan.. actually i dun like andy lau lah but nvm. it was a nice movie.. the boyboy sooo cute. =)
i'm really happy nowadays.. really really happy. i think i smile to myself at least 5 times a day.
that's good.. ain't it? =)) *smiles again*

happy birthday dorothy!! besties forever! =D i love you!! u haven call me lor. but nvm. haha. i'm making something for her.. but i dunno if it'll succeed. it's a project. =X so i'll be giving you ur present later wor! best things come last! =)

happy new year everyone~~ may 2006 bring all of you new surprises and joy.=D takkaire~