[[ damn cold night

10:43 PM

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in my dreams i am still walking along that familiar path with you. i tell myself: it will never happen to me again. but i still cry at night for the same damn thing.

lol. copy janice's nick. brrr. nv cry lah. i just... feel this emptiness within me. i feel so hollow yet so heavy. airless. i feel so FEEBLE.

i drag my feet in the day.. i toss and turn in the night.. actually my mind is void of the sad memories.. but my meddlesome heart digs out the past events again.

i feel so aimless and bored every day. i just sleep.

won't someone tell me how to go about living this sad sad life.

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bah
!!!

i must be CRAZY. hahaha.. life is beautiful. my life is not sad at all. i am happy.

i just need some new direction in life. hee. sometimes i think i think too much. and i make myself miserable. lol. being simple minded sometimes is good relaxation for the mind. i am FEEBLE. i have rheumatism. i am WEAK. lols.

should i go watch the comp tml? yeah i should. better lemme see that auntie who complained about us. wah i explain everything nice nice to her and smiled she say i no manners? pui. she dunno what is no manners i'll show her next time. -_-" poor lixuan got scolded for side coaching when she was keeing her mouth shut lorh. mothers. *big sigh*

[[ it's a damn cold night

trying to figure out this life_________